Thursday, January 17, 2008

Dunno why i've never heard this song before. But whoa..is all i can say. It's a really nice sweet number, and really easy to listen to. Jamie Scott and the Town, When will I see your face again.

A question i ask everyday i'm away from her. Feeling kinda despondent, like, not bad, yet not quite neutral either, just..not quite all here.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Singapore

Random update. Just arrived in singapore, aunt drove us all down-sis, grandma and myself. I haven't been here in just about 10 years i think, last mid-year's sleep over at my uncle's house nonwithstanding coz i never really got to see much even then. Prospect of exploring singapore is sorta exciting cum daunting, since i only got mom and sis with me. Wishing i had her here with me.

Hoping Jho and Kevin will come down later in the week or something, and then might hopefully get to be more independent and do some exploring. Realising that lotsa things are different here than in malaysia. Went to vivocity already, pretty sweet design n stuff, but feel so much pressure to have a fast lifestyle..ppl walk fast, eat fast, even the escalators are fast!

Anyway, might have more stuff to say later. Listening to Teardrops on my Guitar again, and can't help thinking how incredibly sad it is. Somehow i'm addicted to it though. Maybe i really am secretly emo after all.

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Heard this song on the radio. I don't know why, but i was really attracted to it. Maybe despite everything i'm still worried of being victim of tragic, unrequited love. But this song is so sad, so simple, and yet says so much.




Also, Shashi left today for the states. Went to send him off at airport. Who knows when we'll see him again, especially us ppl studying where the longest break is at the end of the year (as opposed to US's mid year summer hols). Man, all our friends are leaving, flying off everywhere one by one..i just hope that somehow we'll manage to keep in touch and stay as close as we were in high school. GL was really sad in the car. Makes me wonder how i'd react if i ever had to say goodbye to the one person who knows me best. I think she'd never see it, but i probably wouldn't be strong enough to act like life was gonna be the same the very next day after she'd left.

*Sigh* Sorry for emo post. Just thinking of how a group of about 15-20 who saw each other just about everyday for the last maybe 9-10 years, might only see each other once a year or once every other year. It's sad, but 'tis the reality of life i suppose..everyone grows up, everyone moves on.

I just really hope there wont be too many u turns in my life, and that the one person in life i'd care enough about wouldnt either.

Anyhow, really tired now! Must go sleep.....Nights ppl!

Monday, January 07, 2008

Of Money, Friendship and Love...

The three things which make the world go round.

Money. It's a fact that money talks, and sometimes it's heard louder than a million voices, however absurd that may be. One man with money can literally own the lives of millions without, dictating their fates, their futures, and at times, even their thinking. But the truth is, money is a necessity. My philosophy on money would be: "You need it, so make it." The more money you have, the more comfort you can afford. But the trick is never to fall into the trap of equating comfort with happiness. Comfort can be bought in physical, mental, emotional and spiritual terms, at the cost of nothing more than cold hard cash, but being comfortable doesn't necessarily make one content, or happy. Because it is in failing first that one learns to truly appreciate success, and the truth is, many of us relish challenges, however lazy or nonchalant we portray ourselves to be. We all hate being bored, hate staying stagnant, and as humans are the most dynamic and adaptable creatures on the planet, and being born into too much money could take away that challenge from a person, and result in boredom.

The problem though, with regards to money, is..how much is enough? Surviving from paycheque to paycheque? No..that doesn't sound right. What if the next one doesn't come for some reason? Having so much money you don't know what to do with it? Ideally we would all really love that, but that can't happen to everyone, and with more money comes more stress sometimes, such as the overwhelming attention, the sudden appearance of pretenders. The safeguarding of one's money suddenly takes foremost priority in one's mind, and you'd suspect anyone and everyone. After all, who would be willing to lose something they had in the first place? But too many people are disillusioned by chasing more money, and not losing what they have, to realise when they have enough. Humans, by nature are a greedy species. As money equals comfort, we want more money to gain more comfort and more convenience, but sometimes we don't stop and realise that in trying to gain more money, we're actually depriving ourselves of a lot more comfort and convenience than we would be able to gain at the end.

Friendship. Is a many beautiful thing. Friends are the most important people in the world someone can have, apart from family, and for some, even in spite of family. It is in your friends you entrust your deepest, darkest secrets, and it is to your friends you go to in your hour of need, and you expect them never to tell anyone, and yet still do everything they can to help you. But true friends of this vein are truly a rare breed..few and very very far between.

It is said that a friend in need is a friend indeed. And so it is true. People mingle with other people really easily. As earlier mentioned, people are probably the most adaptable species on the planet. We make nice, exchange pleasantries and say hi, and even have a good time when we're around friends. But in the hour of need, of 100 friends, but a handful will stay, and will help pull you out of the deep end, selflessly doing so without hope of any reward but your loyalty. True friends like these usually care too much, never judge, and will always be there when needed, even if they aren't every other time.

I count myself lucky to have met a number of true friends, though they might not be mine. However, that number is not that great that i need any more than 2 hands to count them. Granted, i haven't lived that long, just shy of 2 decades now, but not to have met 10 true friends, i believe that they are a rare and dying breed. In order to avoid being hypocritical, i suppose it is only fair that i say that i know there are times when i have never been a true friend to some people. However, i am trying to be a better friend, and the thing with me is, whatever else i may be..i am a fiercely loyal friend..to the end.

Love. Finally, the most intangible, inexplicable, yet powerful force of the three, and it isn't just romantic love that i mean, the kind where you go on bike rides through parks together, sit on beaches having picnics, or going out to the theatre together, with all the flowers and chocolates and jewellery. Not just that kind of love. I mean the kind of love which is all encompassing, which is forgiving and kind, and sometimes even sacrificial.

It is love between humankind. Brotherhood, of sorts. Love makes life worth living. Love brought just about each and every one of us into this world and then kept us alive for the majority of our infant lives. I do not pretend to be able to fathom love, as even though i believe i know some of it, i am under no illusions that i completely comprehend its depth, its meanings, and its far reaching comsequences. When you love someone, you'd do just about absolutely everything for them if it'd make them happy. You'd think of them before yourselves, of their futures in tandem with yours, and of keeping them in your lives as long as it's possible to. Without love, we would've been extinct a long long time ago, and without love, we would be hopeless, we would be less brave, we would be less confident, and without love, the disarray in the world would multiply by a whopping 10fold, and without love, all our lives would be that much duller, the sun would seem to shine less bright, and patterns and colours fade and swim before your else.

Love, Friendship and Money. They make the world go round, but do not necessarily mean they are essential one's life. They are fleeting, and non-lasting, coming and going in but a second or two. They flow in and out, creating a sort of balance in the lives we live, but the trick would be to be able to find a solid balance between the 3 elements. Then and only then, can people be truely happy-once they realise the truths for what they are, and realise that happiness stems from all, not just one part of the three, nor two. There always has to be 3.

Just because it's my lucky number :p

Hope you guys enjoyed it..just random thoughts sweeping in and outta my head.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Was listening to Jordin Sparks' album 'coz of Tattoo, but this one caught my ears and made me smile. Let's hope it does to you too.

Missing her so very much right now..