"Surrounded by a million people I still feel all alone."

The lyrics of Michael Buble's Home have never seem more appropriate than now. Don't get me wrong, i really appreciate my friends here in Malaysia, and a part of me's glad to be back with them all, but somehow, in the midst of all the people, i still feel like the most important one is missing, like i left a part of me back in NZ, and forgot to bring it over.

It's just, everything doesn't seem as pretty, the sun doesn't shine as bright nor the sky look as blue without her around. Or maybe i don't really notice that much because nothing seems as significant as the absence of her in my life, by my side, or just a few minutes away.

I'm not depressed or anything. I really am happy to be back among friends of old, but i desperately, dearly do miss her so much.

Oh yeah!

Med school, here i come! Results came out today..i'm in!

The Good Ol' Days...

Do you guys remember those days? The really "good ol' days"...

Back when we moved into a tiny lil air conditioned KH room, when we used to fight during lunch breaks and Jho and stuff would play skipping rope, and i joined sometimes actually.

Remember the time when Teck Eng punched GL in the stomach and he bled everywhere, and before that of me headbutting him and the same thing happening?

Remember playing pepsi cola 'til the last seconds of break, and badminton in the corridors, with shuttles bouncing off the roof and all that?

In standard 5, when the wrestling mania started, remember how Armand was never seen without a sock on his hand? Remember how shashi punched GL's face and there was probably a table full of blood?

Then in Standard 6, Pokemon cards became popular. Daryl and KK came into class, and we all learnt how to swear, and started to fight again with KK's "Ham Chuen Sou". Remember how Shashi got Chokeslammed by Daryl, and how we used to sneak cards in to play before extra class, and how Jason tried to chokeslam someone and broke his arm? Remember how Zaid had a crush on Hannah, and Armand on Stephani, and how Jho and Liyana were like couple of the year?

Haha, so many memories came back to me just there. You guys are welcome to share if you've got any that i've missed out, which i'm sure i have thru this really brief post.

Also, i just had my interview on thurs. I feel it went alright, but so did everyone else with theirs, so i don't know yet. Results will be out on 20th, fingers crossed and pray for me guys!

What if the one thing you want in the world, is the one thing you can't have?

Is there such thing as "can't have"? Really, is nothing unachievable if we want, try and believe hard enough? I used to believe no, but my beliefs are being tested now. Nothing seems to be working, the timing is all wrong, the circumstances aren't the best, and the how wasn't exactly fairytale. But oh, the what, the who, the where..it all feels so right.

So right that I am left wondering if it really is healthy to want something so much you'd go through hell and back, literally, just to have it. It's true isn't it? If we want something enough, we'll go through all the trouble necessary and never complain, endure hardships and not break, face all our fears and barely even flinch.

But what if it's not enough? What then..?

I miss you. I need your hand to hold mine, i need the warmth and security of your embrace, then love and tenderness of your touch, and the kind and caring forgiveness from your big heart.

Got my interview.

13. 12. 2007

9.00-9.35 am

and gotta be there 20 mins early. Wish me luck!!

A Day of Firsts

First time i had a hand in setting up a christmas tree, and lights! First time i wished i didn't have to go back to Malaysia. First time watching to the end an Indian movie.

Have to go back and take more pics of the tree :P