What if the one thing you want in the world, is the one thing you can't have?

Is there such thing as "can't have"? Really, is nothing unachievable if we want, try and believe hard enough? I used to believe no, but my beliefs are being tested now. Nothing seems to be working, the timing is all wrong, the circumstances aren't the best, and the how wasn't exactly fairytale. But oh, the what, the who, the where..it all feels so right.

So right that I am left wondering if it really is healthy to want something so much you'd go through hell and back, literally, just to have it. It's true isn't it? If we want something enough, we'll go through all the trouble necessary and never complain, endure hardships and not break, face all our fears and barely even flinch.

But what if it's not enough? What then..?

I miss you. I need your hand to hold mine, i need the warmth and security of your embrace, then love and tenderness of your touch, and the kind and caring forgiveness from your big heart.