Damnit!

Grrr...sprained my ankle again. This time the left side. Hurts like a mother.

On the bright side, had one of the best afternoons of my life =)

Mahinepua

I hope you know how to pronounce that, 'coz i sure as hell don't!

Seriously though, we went up north to that place for a 3d2n stay at a batch and just to sit on the beach and bum. It took a 3.5 hour, super long and sorta sleepy car ride to get there, through gravel and mud and road, but when we got there, the batch was spectacular, and the views breathtaking. To top it all off, we had the entire stretch of the beach cove almost to ourselves, with only a random assortment of between 3-5 ppl at a time coming and going sometimes. The biggest bummer though, was that while the sands were hot enough to burn, the water was freezing cold, and so was the wind, so we only got into the water just the once, and then played volleyball and touch along the beach all the other times.

Ok, i will let the pictures do the rest of the talking.

More holiday pics...

So we've been going out quite a bit lately. Thought i might share some MORE pics, to make up for previous inactivity during uni period, which..no time at all to blog :P

I thought i'd begin by actually introducing my friends here =)

On sunday, we went for dinner, played some pool and then had drinks at a milk tea place. In the pics that i got, here are:

Well, first off..Me?

Tiffany

Quin and Seran

Bernard

Mitchell and Leo

Rachel and Jin

Quin

Mitchell

And Quin said to show you guys how clean food courts in NZ look like compared to Malaysia(just 'coz she's Malaysian too).

There are heaps more pictures, but i've posted them up on my bebo page, which i think everyone should get so i can just add all you guys =). Here's the link if anyone's interested.

www.bebo.com/xia3

On another note, i'll be flying back either 20th or 27th Dec. Really hoping for 27th so i can spend christmas here, and it's so late coz i've hopefully got an interview to go to anytime between 1st - 19th Dec for med school, so i'll definitely be back for New Years though. Also, it'd be great if those of you flying off would leave me your planned dates of departure, so hopefully we can get together and do something before then.

Cheers!

Hello people! As promised, this is a picture of NZ =) This is Browns Bay, a beach area really close to where i live. And just to remind yous that i'm alive, there is my very healthy(and NOT dry) foot. On the bottom is another pic from Browns Bay, without the distortion of a foot. This was taken today, and the weather was perfect for a day out!

I guess we could say it's about time i wrote in here again. It's been a long, eventful semester, and right now, i'm finally almost done. Exams came and are almost gone, i've got just an English paper left on Wednesday(For those of you who think it's peanuts, think again, i've been getting B+s and the occasional A).

Now again it's time for some self reflection. It's gotten to the point where i really need to take a step back i think, and just think. About life, about love, about the future, and about just me..maybe.

So what DO you do, if the one thing you really want may just be the one thing you can never have?

Have you ever wanted something so much that physically it hurts to think that it might not happen after all, mentally, you can't even conceive the fact that it won't, and your whole self just yearns and burns for it, yet..you wonder if it's all for nothing, and if after all that, things just weren't meant to happen the way you want them to?

What are we meant to do then? I would say try anyway, give it your best shot, and just hang it all, see what happens, but it's a very scary experience, to try and try, never knowing if there's really hope at all in the end, never knowing if what you're really doing is just making things worse, trying so hard only to fail.

It's been said it's better to look on the bright side, and never on the dark, but if you don't consider the dark, who will? Am i just really being afraid of failing, or afraid of not trying? I don't know, i really don't.

I think i've changed for the better from the two years i've spent here. Temper's gone down, my countanence has mellowed, i'm nicer and basically just more of an optimistic, better person, and it's reaped rewards i know. Good things happen to good people, it's true, just not all the time, but we've got to live with it, coz that's the way life is isn't it? Yet, fundamentally, i am the same person, and sometimes, in the face of possible despair, it makes me wonder if that's enough.

Well, enough of that for now. If you're reading this, i'm sorry it sounded so hopeless. I just had to get it out somehow, this dark, down feeling inside me, and hope that my up comes soon enough.

On a lighter note, now that exams are kinda over, time to kick back and relax! Maybe get a job(hopefully), and then..it's back to Malaysia for holidays too =). Looking forward to seeing all of yous, even though there are people here i really don't wanna leave behind.

So, til then, see ya in the next post, which hopefully will come soon.