Wednesday, July 13, 2011

All the fears you feel inside,
and all the tears you cry,
they're ending right here.
I'll heal your heart and soul;
I'll keep you oh so close.
Don't worry; I'll never let you fall.

What do you want to do with your life?

I want to make a difference, but time and time again, this feels inadequate, incomplete without someone there to be proud of me, to stand beside me whatever happens, and someone there to share the difficult times, the easy times and the hard times.

I know where I want to go, I may not know exactly how I am going to achieve these things in life that I want to do, but I believe I am already on that journey. Whether I will take the quickest roads, of indeed even the right roads, I sometimes question.

But I feel like the best way to find out is to just pick one and run! Rather than standing back and wondering, rather than imagining what could be at the other end, follow your gut, take the risk, and just run. Forget the destination because in the end, life takes you where it will no matter how you fight it and I would rather be there having travelled down many wrong paths than having never moved from where you started, stagnant and unwilling to make a choice.

At the end of the day, maybe i havent experienced enough failure to be bitter. Maybe i haven't been disappointed enough to be disillusioned, or maybe I havent been put down enough to realise when to give up.

But it would be a dark day in my life if ever i were to lose the will to live with such reckless abandon, willing to be hurt in the name of experience, willing to put myself on the line for the sake of living. That come-what-may, devil-may-care persona is what I love about who I have become today and it helps me stumble through the challenges which life throws at me not unscathed, but bearing the marks of a veteran.

I want to always live by what Simba once said.."Danger? I laugh in the face of danger!" and be like the child who lives to learn that every chastisement, every hurt is just encouragement to try harder or just as hard and never lose that naive notion that nothing is impossible if I want it badly enough.

And I assure you, I do.