Results came out today. Honestly, i didn't do as well as i would've hoped to, only 10Es all together, and 36E credits. The huge bummer is that, for bio externals, i got a total of 0 Es. Reflecting now, i can honestly say i don't know where i went wrong, but i have a feeling i might have gotten a little overconfident. Well, schol results come out mid feb. I'm hoping i gave that one a good enough shot, and just pray that the results come out in my favour. The main positive to this whole thing is that I.got.into...Uni!

Yep, even with my semi abysmal results, i got into both courses i applied for. Now, the dilemma is..Health Science? or Biomeds? Well, pros and cons...

with Health Science,
It's the recommended pathway into medicine, and you have to do an extra paper, Population Health 2. Now, this may give me an extra advantage-knowing slightly more, but might also put me in the spot, as they take the average results, so why take an extra sub? To top it off, i don't think the prospects of being a Health Science graduate are really very exciting assuming i fail to make it into med school(touch wood).

with Biomeds,
It's a science based degree, which means that if (touch wood again) i fail to make it into med school, there are a more diverse range of career options, from pharmacy to virology to immunology, genetics and microbiology, all that stuff. Also, there's one less paper, and probably less flexibility in subjects, with only one general paper being offered. Also, competition will be really tough from this side, as i have a feeling 80-90% of med school students start off taking biomeds, as it is by far the safer option.

I am leaning towards biomeds, but we'll see. Probably will have to make my decision by the end of the month.

One last thing. Once again today, i revisited the reason why i really want to be a doctor. This is the whole and complete reason, and i promise i will never forget it.

"It's like..if outta the hundreds of patients you treat, about 5 kids are inspired to be doctors..Good doctors. And then again, if somehow, one life that was supposed to be lost, but because of you..they stay alive. It really makes it all worth it i reckon.." -Recollection of an actual coversation

For the record, this is what i believe in now. This is my creed. I pray for the strength and resilience to never let it go..ever. I hope that i will be able to see this vision to its end, and be able to give my best shot and making it all come true.

"..They're hoping for a miracle. And somehow, at 24..you have to find a way to be that miracle.."-Ben Randall, The Guardian.