Just smile =)

I'd forgotten how good it feels when someone smiles at you.
And i don't mean the coincidental smile, the one where you just happen to look when they're smiling, or the tentative smile which says, shyly,
"Hey, I know I know you, but stop looking at me.",
or even the smile which tells you that your last joke was at least a little bit funny.

I'm talking about the smile directed at you and for you. The smile which says, "Thank you." in its sincerest form. The kind that kinda brightens your day just that little bit more, makes you feel just that little bit better inside, and for that briefest moment, just makes you think, "Hey, I might have just done something good here." (Not that i don't do good often or anything :P)

I recently went to observe a shift of this volunteer group called the FEDs, Friends of the Emergency Department. Basically, what i did was pretty simple-deliver food to patients, make them coffee and watch the actual FEDs talk to the patients. But somehow, it made me feel just a little bit happier inside when they smile and say Thank you, or basically just smile when you give them food and offer them help. I know, this may sound sorta melodramatic or blown outta proportion, but i'm not really exaggerating a lot. It's true! I don't know why, maybe it's the fact that they're in pain, maybe it's the fact that they've been hurt, or for some other inexplicable reason, people in there are really nice and VERY appreciative of whatever you try to do for them, which is not exactly very common in everyday life. It's just..a good feeling, and it's pretty hard to describe, but definitely one i haven't felt in quite a while.

I really really want to keep doing this volunteer stuff, and i do regret not getting that involved back in Malaysia when i had so many chances, but there are drawbacks. Firstly, it's 4 hours a week. That's quite a long period of time to be spending in one place, specially one like the emergency ward. Plus, it'll be a challenge, not knowing anyone at all there. Secondly, from what i gather, most of the volunteers are pretty old, like 60 or 65++. It's not that i have anything against them, but it's not like it'll be very easy to fall into that sorta crowd and stuff. So yeah, gonna have to take some time and really think about whether i am prepared to commit to it, as i really don't want to start something and then give it up halfway.

Anyways, i watched Spiderman 3 yesterday. I must say, it was really..plot driven. It was jam packed with villains, action, and every possible plot bunny the director could squeeze into that 2 and a half hours of film. That's not to say i didnt enjoy it. In fact, i think it was better than the first two, the second of which some people claim to be the best, but i found really boring and dull.

Aside from that, Mothers' Day is coming soon. I have no idea what to get my mom. My sis and i have been discussing, but as for actually buying, no ideas yet. I have got something written up, so hopefully my sis will come thru with the card, and then all that's left will be an actual gift. Ideas anybody??

Oh, also, hopefully..i'll be back early in the mid sem break, maybe about as early as 17th of june. Extend my holiday as long as i can! Looking forward to it =), but first..gotta do well in my exams. Got 2 tests coming soon, and finals in june. Getting ready to go hard again. Honestly, this is my all or nothing year. Have to get into med school. No matter What.